I have been struggling with my emotions a friend lost his wife and I feel very sad for him but we both know they will only be separated for a short time. I have not been able to find anything that makes me happy, I have my music and drawing but I am so bad its not even worth doing it anymore. I get so tried of being the c student and would love someday to have some accomplishments I could be truly proud of. Well enough of the pity me wagon off to work on my novel.

Well it is no fun having a heart attack but it is better then the other option of not discovering my heart problems. Along with a new diet I am exercising 3 days a week and hope to increase that but I am going to take my time. I did not gain all this weight at once and it will take a little to get it off.
What I am hoping to happen is that I start running and I am going to use the Couch Potato to 5k plan.

I lost my Mother several years ago and I still miss her. I know I will see her again but days like today turn me melancholy.

Today I have learned of a new APP and in light of the 3 women who found their freedom I ask any who reads this to download the app and you just might become someones HERO. Watch the video on Elizabeth Smarts blog and then you can decide.




http://elizabethsmartfoundation.org/

The View

The other day I unfortunately had the opportunity to watch the View and the ladies there were talking about the double standard of when a man dates a underage girl compared to a women dating an underage boy. It seems they feel it is ok for a women to abuse boys but man should be locked up. I feel abuse is abuse no matter what the sex is. The scars are the same.

RAPE

All this talk about rape is good to a point it brings the subject out of the dark. The problem lies in that it has touched more people then you realize some you would never think. I don’t know if by joking about it makes it not so terrible but try and remember the victims of rape are not laughing on the inside. They are in pain more pain then you can imagine. Reliving events they had no control over and for some they still do not have any control because of being haunted by the memories. A lot of survivors have to go through therapy their whole lives because they cannot get past it. Some just hide if not in their room inside of themselves afraid to be around people all the time never knowing who to trust.  All I ask is when people bring the subject up to please not make a mockery about it have some heart for the Survivors. And I know I am probably rambling and not grammatically correct but Oh well I had to say something.

Home Teaching

I have been struggling to get my Home teaching in and I came across this App called LDS PLAN and I am going to start using it and will post the pros and the cons. I am putting a link on here so others who want to try it can.

http://www.ldsplan.com/