4 little words

I saw a video the other day by a 19 year old who stood in front of a large crowd and admitted that he suffers from depression. I admire him for this and he has given me the courage to say the 4 little words.

I Suffer From Depression, I have most of my life and have basically self medicated but all that ended when I moved to Georgia and married my darling wife.  I stopped self medicating and low and behold my personal demons started to arise.  I am not going to delve into the details of the abuse I suffered when I was a child or when I was a young man but just say it was horrible. It left me not trusting anyone sometimes not even me. I went into therapy and it has worked wonders for me and I would urge anyone who feels lost and alone to think about trying it out it just might save your life


.http://www.upworthy.com/this-kid-thinks-we-could-save-so-many-lives-if-only-it-was-okay-to-say-4-words?g=2&c=upw1

Just heard the news that my daughter is in the hospital getting ready to delivery grand baby # 4. I love it when the family grows. It makes everyone's hearts a little softer for a time!!

I have been struggling with my emotions a friend lost his wife and I feel very sad for him but we both know they will only be separated for a short time. I have not been able to find anything that makes me happy, I have my music and drawing but I am so bad its not even worth doing it anymore. I get so tried of being the c student and would love someday to have some accomplishments I could be truly proud of. Well enough of the pity me wagon off to work on my novel.

Well it is no fun having a heart attack but it is better then the other option of not discovering my heart problems. Along with a new diet I am exercising 3 days a week and hope to increase that but I am going to take my time. I did not gain all this weight at once and it will take a little to get it off.
What I am hoping to happen is that I start running and I am going to use the Couch Potato to 5k plan.

I lost my Mother several years ago and I still miss her. I know I will see her again but days like today turn me melancholy.

Today I have learned of a new APP and in light of the 3 women who found their freedom I ask any who reads this to download the app and you just might become someones HERO. Watch the video on Elizabeth Smarts blog and then you can decide.




http://elizabethsmartfoundation.org/

The View

The other day I unfortunately had the opportunity to watch the View and the ladies there were talking about the double standard of when a man dates a underage girl compared to a women dating an underage boy. It seems they feel it is ok for a women to abuse boys but man should be locked up. I feel abuse is abuse no matter what the sex is. The scars are the same.